Why has my life become one long rainy day?
Since you left, I've struggled to find a good balance between work and thinking of you. You seem to be consuming my every thought. My being is just tired.
Why are you never there when I need you most? I've become someone that I don't know. I step outside of myself and wonder why anyone would want to be around me.
I smile so people won't figure me out. It's hard sometimes but I would rather fake happiness than having someone asking how I am and unraveling on the spot.
I'm struggling with myself. Each day I find it hard to continue with this facade.
I always ask myself "why me?"
I've chosen this but I just can't seem to get away from long distance relationships.
Yes, this one is a bit different...but long distance nonetheless.
I miss you and I don't know how to deal. Somedays I am perfectly fine but most days I am not.
I'm so lonely even when I am with people. Even when I am talking to you.
I'm sick of feeling so blue. Every. single. day.
When will it end?
I'm praying that I can keep my sanity and be able to smile from inside again.
When will that be?
Counting the days seems to be useless and puts me in a much deeper place. So many days. So many.
Will anyone even notice?
I'm drowning in an pool ocean of dark nothing. It's hard to breathe.
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